Things that make you go “Hmmmmmm……..”
I had a weird question come to mind the other day as I was cleaning the mirrors in my bathroom. The first question was… “Why the hell am I cleaning these mirrors, I can’t even see myself!” …that’s not the weird one. Then the next question was…..“If I regained my vision in 10, 15, or 20 years… would I want to look at myself in the mirror?” I stopped and stared at my cloudy reflection. Wow. Maybe I need to lay off the Windex….’cuz that question hit me like a ton of bricks! I know physical appearance isn’t everything… but, would I want to see how the years have treated me?
First of all, if I got my vision back, I would run, DRIVE, or fly to wherever my children were…… and look at them for a really long time. I would study every detail of their faces until they said “Ok, Ok Mom…really??”. And I would say,”Yes! Really!” Then, I would make my way to the rest of my family and friends, and go on a road trip and look at everything and anything I could! Wow. My heart is racing just writing about this!!!
Let’s go back to that mirror in the bathroom. Would I go over to the mirror and look? Would I want to see how I’ve aged…since becoming legally blind at the age of 50? Would I recognize the woman in the mirror? Have I aged gracefully? Do my eyelashes look as awesome as I think they do? Is my hair color the way I remember it?
I haven’t been able to shake this question, so I threw it out on the blog. Am I the only one who thinks about this weird stuff? How would other people, who have lost vision, answer this question? I just don’t know. What I do know is this….looking in the mirror would be more than just seeing my face. I would see the years of laughter, sadness, smiles, and worry that have been etched upon my face. Meeting up with my reflection would be an emotional reunion. (Hopefully not too shocking!)
Tell me. Would you look in that mirror? Would you be prepared for who you would see after all those years? Hmmm….