I went to a concert last night. I was looking forward to seeing one of my long time favorite female artist! I love listening to live music and watching action on stage. Who doesn’t love the WHOLE concert entertainment experience!?! It’s what we pay for! Right? Well, this concert left me with mixed feelings and struggling with my new reality.
As I said, I was thrilled to go see one of my favorite singers, as I have done many times! As the night went on, it was hard for me to stay in the moment. I was fighting with the thoughts that I could NOT “see” the singer Or band rockin’ the stage. Why? Because I’m legally blind now.
I still have a difficult time functioning mostly auditory when I’ve always absorbed life visually! So now I let my brain fill in the images as I try, try real hard, to dial in on the music. Gotta tell ya… let’s be real here… I’m missing so much of the visual show and that’s upsetting! Sure, I could get tickets for the first row or use binoculars to get some sort of view. I suspect that’s what many people in my position do. Okay. Fine. Whateverrrr. It’s just not the f*cking same as it used to be!! No one wants to miss the visual pizzazz of the performance!
Do I need to lower my expectations because I’m blind? Are concerts or any live show going to be a love-hate thing now?? Yeah, yeah, I have to experience things differently now… blah, blah, blah. I know, I knooow! < Insert pouty face here > sheez.
Damn ! That stinks’
maria…good for you finally letting loose with anger and frustrations at your limitations….your adjustment has been nothing if not phenominal…..you have run with it and done things beyond belief and you have every right and reason to be irate……….I know you will bounce back and I hurt for you……you are wonderful and i love you
Hang in there my friend… Yes, it now is a different way of listening to things such as concerts, musicals, plays etc….. – Does it get easier with time????? Maybe for some, but it will never be the same for us… But think positive and know you can still be there and be a part of it all….
So I’m not the only one hey! binoculars wouldn’t even make an ounce of difference no matter where I sit so I just try to focus on the music as I see a number of concerts through the year also. Wondering the whole time what the artists are doing, dancing, swayin, standing still, what they’re wearing. Thinking I’m coping well until someone says, “oh you wouldn’t be able to enjoy this the same without being able to see what they’re doing”. FFS some people have no tact. Because I actually went to see Alice Cooper and Motley Crue last week and AC came onto stage with a snake around his neck, another part they brought a fake guilotine out and chopped his head off haha!I have to admit I don’t think I’ll ever get over the anger because it’s been over half my life now and most of it raising my kids on my own. But… I wake up breathing, I’ve got a roof over my head, I haven’t been murdered, I’m still here reading your GGB!
i hear you! Every once in a while I have these random experiences where things just aren’t the same. Some days it is just mildly annoying. Other days it makes me want to stomp my feet and cry and pot and scream at the world. It has been a long time since I have had that feeling . I would say about a year. Perhaps it does just take time. In all honesty, I think the anger and yes the pouty moments are necessary! They are stepping stones to how we move forward and it will help guide us to the next phase of our lives. That is my opinion anyway.
When you’re done pouting don’t forget to walk outside and smell the roses. Or in my case the lilacs. I can tell you this , the lilacs in my yard are so very potent. If I still had my vision I bet I would barely notice them. 😉